It is supposed to be the best in the world. I you get sick, you have the right to treatment and only have to pay little of it. If you pay most of the travel, you can choose hospital. Unless you have an illness that is rare. Then it is only possible to get treatment at one place. There might be just one doctor in the country who is allowed to treat you. So what if ze doesn’t want to treat you? Then you are screwed. Les videre
Too much of a man
At least in my testosterone levels, way more than normal for a nontrans-man. That may explain why I got my period back when I increased my testosterone to full dose. So I decided to reduce my dose by half. I also got thyroid problems again. I got hyperthyreosis after I gave birth to my daughter four years ago, got treatment and was pronounced well again two years ago.
I fear that the endocrinologist will tell me to stop T. I have no intention to do that.
I’ve now been on T for 4 months and 4 days. My body is a lot hairier, but very little in the face. My hairline is not withdrawing. I don’t want to loose my hair, just want to have a male hairline. My facial skin is rougher and makes me look more male.
The only doctor who could help me get my operations has got a warning from the health authorities and may loose his license if he continues to help people. I’m very sad because of this. Now my only hope is that my complaint against the GID-clinic will be heard, by the same authorities who believe in two and only two genders/sexes and that to remove breasts is a sin against humanity. Or something similar. I don’t understand their «reasoning».
I’m loosing my ass
and I can’t say I miss it. This is apparently what they call «redistribution of fat». Although I can’t se where it has migrated to. My legs has grown wider, but it seems like that is mostly muscles. Don’t know where they come from, as I haven’t exercised. My hips are also loosing fat. My jeans are suddenly too big.
This is not what I had expected. FIrst of all I didn’t thinkt the redistribution would happen so soon after starting T. Second; I thought that my thighs and hips would redistribute themselves to my stommack, but it is not bigger than it was. I also expected my damned boobs to shrink. That has not happened so far.
The stench of testosterone
I sweat more than I used to, and it stinks.
3 months on T!
Time for the monthly update. I think this might be the last one, though. The changes just continues in the same path as the two previous months: Hair keeps growing on my stommack. Other things grow well too. My eyebrows are growing together.
I increased my dosage a month ago to full dose, 50 mg testogel each day. I don’t think the changes have speeded up bacause of it. It might even be a too high dosage for me.
New this month is that my facial hair is changing; getting stronger and darker, but just on the upper lip, on the sides. Shows that the testosterone is working and gives hope for the future, although I think it will take many years for me to grow a beard.
Also new, but not welcome, is the bleeding. With no expectation of a hysterectomi in near future, I almost hope that I’ve got something really bad that require removal of all internal female organs. I’m going to see a gynecologist probably next week. It is most likely that testosterone fucks up my hormone-contraception. The only reason to keep it in there is to avoid bleeding, so if that is not happening, then it probably would be best to remove it. Not looking forward to it!
I’ve asked my doctor to prescribe Nebido injections when my current prescription of testogel expires in ca. two months. I’m also trying to find out how I can get my mastectomy and hysterctomy.
Wish me good luck!
First month on T
My first month on testosterone has been busy. I’ve not experienced very big changes, but small and important ones:
- A little more body hair
- A little more acne
- Easier muscle building (although I haven’t been training, so the change could have been bigger)
- First beard-like hair on my upper lip
- Harder to speak in a high voice
- Something is growing bigger 😉
No psychological changes, except maybe I’ve become a little more impulsive, but that doesn’t hurt. I feel more peaceful these days, but that might be because I reached my number one goal for the last two years; to get testosterone and start my physical transition.
First week on T and my fellow T-mates
I noticed some changes today. I think it is happening really fast. I experienced increased acne few days after I started. My voice is pretty low to begin with, but today I noticed that I was unable to reach the higher tunes without a great deal of stress on my voice. I experienced a lowering of the voice during the first half of 2006. I did’t get my hormone levels checked, as I thought it was just a ever lasting cold. But now I wonder if that may have been some sort of high testo or just a mental effect of coming to terms with my gender identity. It might even be that when I allowed myself to be the man that I am for the first time, it sparked some weired changes in my hormone levels. I guess I’ll never find out for sure.
I also thought I noticed some increase in the hair growth on my stomack, where I apply the testogel, but that seems to be just imagination. Otherwise I would end up in fur before the end of summer. But the skin in my face is really changing, and not only because of acne. All my pores seems bigger.
Today I also got my first experience of what a male sex-drive might be like. Very strange. I’ve concidered myself as male in that respect for a long time, but today was different. I felt my whatever-you’d-like-to-call-it getting hard and everything happened faster than I’m used to. It has also grown a little bit, I think, but I’m not sure.
We are four transmen at WordPress starting T roughly at the same time:
Jacky started T may 26. Today he writes of his changes, including the sex-drive.
Ryan started T may 29.
Gender Outlaw started T april 2.
And me, june 5.
It’s kind of a similar feeling as I got the first time I met someone born the same day as me. Way cool!
We have different doses and brands. I believe I’m the only one on gel?
I’m 30 y.o., Gender Outlaw is 34, Jacky is 35 and Ryan is 22.
Ryan lives in Australia, I live in Norway, Jacky in Canada and so does Gender Outlaw.
I got my prescription in the mail today. I went right to a pharmacy and picked up my box filled with small packages of testogel. I’m the happiest man in the world!
Pictures can be seen at my norwegian blog.